Thursday, December 23, 2010

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

It's okay, you can all laugh at me because I get emotional when it comes to Harry Potter.

I can't even appreciate the R/Hr when I watch this video because I'm too busy crying for Hermione. The first time I saw this video I cried so hard when it shows Hermione putting a Memory Charm on her parents and when she screams while she is being tortured by Bellatrix. I couldn't even pay attention to the whole R/Hr thing because I was crying too hard. And even now, watching it for a second, third time I still start crying when those clips come on. The part where she's about to Obliviate her parents, I cry and I want to give Hermione a huge hug. And when Hermione screams, I can't stop myself from shuddering and covering my eyes and ears. I legit have to turn away.

in other shtuff, new design for mah blog!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

what the hell did i do.

why won't you talk.

and if i didn't do anything. . . then what is going on?

you probably didn't mean it, but i feel it.
I still feel it.

Monday, November 29, 2010

El Clásico.

I don't really have much to say, except AHHHHHHHH BARCA MY LOVES, YOU ARE THE BEST. FIVE ZERO BITCHESSSS. Go home, Real Madrid. YOU GOT NOTHIN.

I'm super happy that FC Barcelona won and Real Madrid LOSSTTTT. Sure I love a lot of the Real Madrid players, but no sympathy from me tonight. I sadfaced at all the fights that broke during this match. Mostly instigated by Real Madrid. Not cool guys. Totally not classy. Come on, have more class than that. Plus, you're hurting my Barca players. :(



(And Dahveed Villa, you are my hero. <3)

Sunday, November 28, 2010


Okay, so diehard Harry Potter fan coming through.

I spent all of Thanksgiving weekend reading Harry Potter. Except today, because I was like CRAAAAP, HOMEWORK. But yeah, I got through Harry Potter 1-4 and the first 100? pages of OotP. While I was reading, I got excited whenever I understood something British. Being an American makes this kind of stuff exciting. So when Hermione mentioned wine gums in GOF, I was excited to know that I knew what she meant thanks to Charlieissocoollike. (THANK YOU CHARLIE AND I LOVE YOU.) And then when I understood the British slang, it made me happy. I noticed more things and felt what the characters felt in greater intensity this time too. There was this one part in the 4th one where Harry and Ron are trying to get dates for the Yule Ball and Ron says how this was all stupid and Harry should just go with Ginny. But then Ginny says how she can't go with Harry because she already agreed to go with Neville and then there was one sentence saying that she looked miserable. I FELT SO BAD FOR HER RIGHT THERE. She definitely still really liked Harry there and reading those words, I was like CAN I PICK UP THESE WORDS AND HUG THEM? I wanted to give Ginny a hug really bad. Poor girl, she could have almost gone with Harry. AND WHAT IF SHE DID AND HE PAID ATTENTION TO HER AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE AN AMAZING NIGHT. GINNY WOULD DIE INSIDE. LIKE I WOULD IF THAT HAPPENED. Ah well. A fangirl can't always have what she dreams of.

I cried a lot while reading of course. Especially during the 4th and 3rd ones. My little sister saw me and asked me why I was crying. And my reply to her question was, "I'M NOT CRYING." Yeah, biggest lie ever. I had not read the first four in a while and since I had read them, I grew up a lot, I think. And by grew up a lot, I mean became an even more emotional girl who is more prone to crying. I think seeing the characters all grown up and then going back to when they were young affected me greatly too. So sometimes I'd be like "Harry had to go through this and he's only FOURTEEN?!" I guess that also had to do why I cried so much.

Reading the third book was kinda...weird. It is my favorite one out of the series and it still is. But whenever they would be hatin on Sirius, I'd be thinking NO SIRIUS IS A GOOD GUY. STOP BEING MEANN. There was this one part in the book when Harry has a dream with Sirius and Pettigrew in it and he says how Pettigrew resembled Neville. And I got so mad. I was like SKDFJD DO NOT COMPARE AT ALL. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU HARRY. Because of course, NEVILLE IS SO FREAKING AWESOME. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. And Pettigrew is the one character in all of characters that I have ever read that I hate the most. No lie. Peter Pettigrew is the fictional character that I hate the most out of all fictional characters.

Last night, after I finished GOP, I went on the Internet for a little while and experienced what I call Harry Potter withdrawal. Symptoms including feeling really bummed out, craving anything HP-related, and difficulty finding something funny unless it was HP-related.

So I gave in to my cravings and found these on the Internet. THESE VIDEOS ARE AMAZING AND THEY MADE ME CRYYY.

My tears and smiles are forever when it comes to the Harry Potter series.

These characters, they are like my brothers and sisters. This series has impacted me so much, it has been a huge influence on my childhood and I hope I treasure it as much as I do now when I'm older. The characters are not just characters. Harry Potter is not just a book. It's a world that I wish was real. Even if it is not real physically, it is real inside of me. The troubles, emotions, experiences of the characters. I've been there with them going through the same things. They will forever be a part of me. It has had as much of an impact on me as actual things have had on me. I don't love them like I love other characters. They have been a huge part of my life for ten years and after these years, I am not going to let them go. They have a huge place in my heart. And they always will have.

When one door closes, another one opens

That title is just me trying to justify quitting NaNoWriMo. Yeah, yeah, I know I suck. I quit halfway through the month. I am just terrible at putting my life on hold. So now, I am free to do catch up on my AP classes and continue my Harry Potter fangirling. Because that is all that I did this Thanksgiving. But more on that later.

Right now, I feel bad that I quit. I don't really regret it because I don't think I could have achieved the word count. I wasn't really motivated. I didn't have a huge desire to write this novel in a month. Sure it would have been cool, but it wasn't important enough to me. But I had a lot of the story outlined and I'm sad that I didn't get to some of the characters. I really wanted to write about them.

Okay, I think I'll make my Harry Potter fangirling the next post. Because I have a LOT to say on that. :)

Sunday, November 7, 2010


CRAP CRAP CRAP. She sounds like KATNISS. sdfjsdhfl what do I dooooooo SHE SOUNDS LIKE SHE IS KATNISS. AND DAMIAN IS HAYMITCH. AND PEETA IS MIRANDA. ohhhhhh gosshhh What.Do.I. DO. This is why I didn't want to do NaNoWriMo. I was afraid my characters and plot would be too much like some other book. That it would sound like some other book. And in this one conversation, it does and even though it is only one conversation, I'm like NOOOOOOO. SADFLJSD SD What do I doooooooo. aldfdskjl great.

>.< I hope the rest of my story isn't like this.

Sunday, October 31, 2010


It feels good to be up at 3:05 in the morning. Haven't stayed up this late in a while and you know what? Who cares about bags under my eyes and dark circles? I have been sifting through some Tumblrs and wish I had as much stuff and free time to post. Yikes. Tomorrow is NaNoWriMo and I don't even have a real plot. Finding home. That is so loose, I won't even know what to do with it. Gah, I should outline. Instead of going to sleep. Yeah, I think that's what I'll do. YAY FOR ALL-NIGHTERS. First one eva?

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I fail to post here XD

Agghh, crap. Life has been so BUSY and so MUCH that I super-failed to post. SO liek yea, my life right now is SCHOOL, COLLEGE APPS, LACK OF SLEEP, SAT SCORES, and WHEN AM I GOING TO SEE MY FRIENDS. Gr. So my period started this morning (YUP IM COOL AND DON'T MIND IF THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS.)  and I'm kinda pissy because of that and I was in a bad mood today. Gr. I forgot my psych stuff this morning because I was in a rush this morning and I had a test today and derwid was annoyed at me because I forget and will have to hand it in late. I know it's my fault but geez no need to be a whole bitch about it. But thats how she is, a bitch and not a nice person. And now people have just been on my nerves gah. Donaghy is such a fail teacher. He doesn't know what he's doing and I end up showing how to do the problem for him. WTH GAH WHY AM I ONE TEACHING HIM AND THE CLASS INSTEAD OF HIM TEACHING THE CLASS AND ME. i hate calc.

So I ranted about Psych to Vicky today and I feel bad for complaining to people who like never complain. I feel like such a whiny pissy bitch. So right now I'm listening to Disney classic songs. At 12:34 AM. Hahhhh, 1 2 3 4. Oh Disney, how I loveth you and how you are the cure for everything miserable. <3. So my plan for this weekend, is homework, college essays/apps, ordering yearbook, and great expectations essay. HUZZAH. InshAllah, I'll be able to get this done. I NEED to get this done. Oh yeah I have to plan for NaNoWriMo too. GADSFJDH Right. Need to come up with a plot for that. SIGH.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Oh the stars

I love looking at the stars at night. And it has to be a specific time at night too. Early in the night wouldn't work because not all the stars are out and there are not as bright as they can be. I love looking at them in the middle of the night. Like at 4 AM. They're super bright and it looks amazing. The sky looks so so so pretty! The first time I saw the sky like that, I was in awe. Now, whenever I can I try to look at the stars. And the moon. It's really pretty too. I recently discovered that I can see a constellation from my bedroom window. And that constellation is Orion, the Greek hunter (warrior?). He's right outside there. And I believe it's pretty awesome. Especially because I'm terrible at putting constellations together. I can never see them in a picture. Usually, I see a bunch of stars. So being able to see Orion is special to me.

Aim for the moon. If you miss, you'll land among the stars.

I hate the SATs.

They say practice makes perfect. I don't think that applies to the SATs. I have taken so many practice SAT tests but there is NO.WAY. that I'm going to get a 2400 when I take them in October. Gah. WHAT AM I DOING THESE PRACTICE TESTS FOR??/// Oh right, to increase my score. So I can get into those 7-year med programs. SIGH.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Charlie is like cool

Uhms, so I love charlieissocoollike. So you should watch him too. And watch his Stickaid Live Web thing. And donate money! For the children! It's all about the children.  =)

Friday, August 27, 2010

Pride and Prejudice

For my summer reading, I had to read Pride and Prejudice and then pick out a key passage and write a response to it. I chose the scene when Lady Catherine confronts Elizabeth about her rumored engagement with Mr. Darcy (MR. DARCY *SWOONS*). My response was an eloquent arrangement of words that explained how this passage represented the class barriers in their society and Elizabeth's refusal to conform to them. What my response really was and what I really wanted to write was this:

I am SO proud of Elizabeth for standing up to Lady Cathestinks like that! She ain't gonna let NO ONE get in between her and Mr. Darcy's engagement, no way, no how! That's right, GURLFRENN, TELL THAT LADY TO SUCK IT. That's how its done! I'm so super excited that Elizabeth likes Mr. Darcy, who is an absolute GEM. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! Oh my gosh, I so excited for their wedding! It's gonna so awesome! They're going to get married and Lady Catherine can DEAL. Elizabeth doesn't care about stupid class barriers, she can totally do whatEVVERR she wants, because she's in love dammit!

But that's not going to fly in AP Literature.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

First Post~

AHH Okay. My first post. YAY. I made the blog. And finished adjusting the settings and stuff so now I can actually post. I don't really know if my blog will get any followers but they are welcome. I'm not going to go and be like "GO READ AND FOLLOW MY BLOG PLZ?" because ehh, I don't like to really show others what I write. I haven't added any superpersonal information in my profile either. So there is something I wanted to show you guys (if you guys are out there). Something I discovered two days ago. And that is SHANE DAWSON. Okay, okay, I know he's like the Most Subscribed on Youtube or something, so you've probably have heard of him before. But see, I've never watched his videos before until two days ago. I'd always see them on the homepage, but I dunno. I'd think he was obnoxious or something because of the way his videos looked, with that bright yellow background. I always got the impression he was going to be yelling alot or be super immature. I really don't know why. But then one day, I clicked on the link and I was like, holy crap. This guy isn't super immature, in fact, he seems very mature and legitmately funny! So I just wanted to post one of his videos here:

That was one of the first videos of him that I saw. I think it's from his channel where he does more relaxed videos.