Saturday, January 1, 2011

i cant believe its 2011. it was a crappy ass start too. my two best friends got into an argument and i want to cry. i was trying to make it happy for at least me but i still felt the tension. goddamn. i want to cry because there is tension between them. i wanted to make it a happy start, spend time with them like i usually do. we couldn't have a sleepover like normally, but IM-ing each other was the next best thing and i was happy for that. but then a couple minutes before midnight, one of them said something that struck a nerve and they got offended. it makes me want to cry. one of them left our group conversation and talked to me separately. i tried to make her happy. i tried to get her to listen to the other one apologizing. but she wouldn't listen. so i tried to make it as happy as i could for myself. 17 and a half now. but i cant believe that its 2011. the year that i freaking graduate. time is going by so fast and im growing up so fast, before i know it, it will be graduation. im scared to grow up. im scared to find out what it is like in the real world. i want to say protected. and sheltered. im scared to take on teh real world. but time goes on. and i will try my best. its all i can do.

not to sound all whiny teenager-ish, but im feeling very alone and misunderstood. :(


  1. I totally know what it's like to feel like you're growing up to fast. sucks that you have to be reminded of it on new year's. Friends usually make up after a cool down time though, my sis and I fight, but we always make up in the end. Not like my opinion matters all that much, but I hear ya.

  2. Thank you for commenting. I really appreciate it. I'm feeling much better now and so are my friends, I think. :)

  3. Hi Lolz, I have awarded you the Stylish Blogger Award on Howling Turtle!